I have been realizing more and more how much I have been changing. I used to think that at a certain point things leveled out and life became somewhat consistent. This is not the case. I feel like I am doing the complete opposite. I have always been concerned with my weight. It is a fact. Since day one I have struggled with food and how I look. I think more of the issues come from some people in my family that put too much thought into looks. Not just the obvious of wearing clothes that are clean and bathing on a regular basis, but and obsession of looking like you just popped off of the cover of Marie Clarie or Ann Taylor. It is sickening to me! I used to think that if I went out to dinner with friends or boys that I should be ordering a salad or something healthy. I realize that this thinking is flawed, but five months ago I was living that way.
Now, I am less worried about what size clothes I am putting on, and more worried about being happy. If I became a size 2 overnight tomorrow, it wouldn't make a bit of difference, I would still be unhappy. I would probably move on to find the next quick fix to make myself happy. So for the moment I am trying to find what makes me happy. I think if I can figure our what makes me feel fulfilled then everything else will fall into place.
Here are some pictures of a few things that make me happy:
My Cat, Ziggy
Ziggy is my best friend. He offers me more support than a lot of people know. I am truly thankful to have him around.
My Family
My family can be loud, crazy and at times, down right annoying, but I love them. It is nice to know that I can count on the for support.
School and most important Learning
Purple Tulips- Especially when they are full and ready to bloom.
Metro Chic Nail Polish- By far my FAVORITE nail polish ever.
